Downsider...

I've just decided to write my first blog... basically its about how I feel and become at the moment.

Putting all these down seems easy.... easier than solving all those god damn problems and troubles of mine. It's not because I was directly betrayed or caused by someone else, many of these sh*t were my own wrong doings.

I felted as if the sky gonna fall on me anytime or... it had already fell on me! A bottomless pit is what I've falling into... endless way down.

I want to be strong, but recently been so hard to stay that way, my friends (well... most of them), families, relatives and whoever have left me one by one, not that they are dead but left because they felt betrayed, cheated and some other wrong ways create by me, me alone.

There's a chinese saying... when there's a problem with money, then it's not a problem that can't be solved..... utterly rubbish!

If you are reading this and felt that I'm being self pity then you probably be right... I don't want any comforting but just an outlet for me to get this off my chest.