After procrastinating about a decision, I decided to give it a shot to send a text message to that one person who indirectly ruin my life and asking her to return the huge sum of money that I loan to her a few years back, and as expected, there were no reply. Probably she is laughing at the moment thinking to herself : "Jerk! Idiot! It's not a loan, You gave it to me??!!"
Sometimes I wonder how oneself can assume about everything and take things for granted and as a warrant gift. If I am a wealthy person who doesn't mind giving ten of thousands of dollars away, yes why not, take it, but the realty is, I'm not.
Felt betrayed, cheated and jaded, this bottomless pit never ends. It's kind of useless shouting for help, no one will able to hear me when I'm way down at the bottom.
Losing trust and making people around me lost trust in me, it's just getting from bad to worst. Putting on a smile on my pathetic face is getting harder each day.
Nevertheless, I still seek for that beacon of light that will guide and give me hope. Yes, just a thin ray of hope will just do for me, for now.
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